Friday, December 10, 2010

Term Tests are coming...

I don't know why, but sometimes I just get a little sad over god knows what. Its just my anti-social-emo nature to do so, I can't help but be sad over things that goes on in my mind. The tendency to just suddenly disappear just to be alone is just driving me crazy, its just the sudden urge to isolate everyone and just be by myself sometimes for no good reason... Its not addiction to games or anything like that... Its just the need to be alone...

I know of crazy friends whom think im sad cause im single or never had a companion and finding one will somehow solve my tendency to emo... I don't want anyone or any companion, first of all I don't think I will find someone whom has the same interest as me or is like me in anyway... I don't want to hurt myself again over stupid things im just very very afraid of being scarred... I don't have the time or money to support/entertain her... & on top of that I plan to go overseas and might never see this little island again for good... and last of all im not very social... so I don't want one nor do I need one so stop saying like staying single is a bad thing or whatever... What if I don't want children? What if I just want to live the rest of my life alone or single?

I don't know, it seems I am surrounded by so many friends but yet I feel lonely... So whats the answer to this? Drinking seems like a nice short term answer... I feel like alienating quietly...

Maybe tomorrow I will spend some alone time with myself if possible...

Thursday, September 9, 2010

The last min

Well, sorry that I haven't bogged in some time cause during my YOG break my sad anti social life has dwindled down to eat.sleep.starcraft. I just keep on playing and playing non stop all day...

Oh and Xu Jie recently picked up photography! Finally I have found the replacement photographer for production crew...

Ruzana invited all of production crew to her hari raya celebration but sadly only a handful is going... i feel sad for her...

Oh well I have had thoughts of migrating to the US and never coming back again. I don't know why... maybe I hate my life here. looking for a great life somewhere else sounds exciting. Like trekking Europe. I wish I could trek Europe on my own one day...

Back 2 rush studying for the 9.30am principle of dynamics exam...
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Monday, August 2, 2010

Is gaming laptops really necessary?

Finally found the time to reformat my computer! It was seriously flooded with a whole ton of viruses... At 1 point it was so bad, I was having a chat with my HACKER. Yup you heard it right, my hacker was actually chatting with me... Nice...

So that turned me from anti-antivirus to pro-antivirus. I helped my dad's company implement anti-virus to all the computers too so I have really done lots of research on this topic....

And finally, while I was surfing the web, I came across this advertisement on Dell's latest alienware laptop with a top notch graphic card! But looking at the size of the alienware series, you have to ask yourself these very important questions before you think about buying "gaming laptops"

Is it really necessary to game on the go? Are you carrying that huge laptop with you everywhere? Can't you game at home on a desktop and bring a thin small laptop for work?

Well I can never understand why there are gaming laptops...

Oh well

Stay Well,

Sunday, August 1, 2010

a few mistakes here n there

Haha finally performed today, tough I made a embarrassing mistake, the minister was still a very nice guy.

I lost my handphone... omg.. I hope its at my grandmothers house... my parents are so gonna get pissed off cause its so new... ouch...

Really tired, gotta make sure I start studying tomorrow!!!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Pll read this?!!! =D

Hey, people actually read this ^^ wow! Im surprised some people can manage to find my little blog haha!

Anyway I shot 2 events yesterday, back 2 back and its really tiring. I slept not long after I came home.

Today will be my actual performance day!!!!!!!!!! For some event at Kallang CC. I will be performing with my teacher for a small group and also the Ex-Arts minister ><>

Oh n me an Xu Jie made an agreement!! Next friday, we are both going to buy starcraft 2 and he is gonna stay over at my house to play it!! Haha

Thats all

Stay Well,

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Oh dear...

Looks like I don't even feel like going to class anymore.....

Needs a nice...

loves n hugs,

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Time for a break

Sorry for everything that I,

Made you sad
Made you angry
Made you afraid

Something is wrong with me so im taking a break from dreamland and going back to harsh reality.

See you soon, hopefully.

loves n hugs,