I dont' think I can make it....

Gotta finish the parts manual book for this assembly and another assembly before school starts, considering I can only cover around 6 pages a day its not helping with the fact that there are upcoming camps that eat up my precious time left.

Will be gone form 1st to 3rd oct for camp as a photographer... hopefully can bring my work there and finish up when im free.

Planning to build a new computer when I get my pay soon.... A nvidia gtx275 will most probably be the graphic card. Quad core or not im not so sure yet but 4 or 6 gb of ram will be definitely put in.

The aim setup here is to have around 3 screens. The god of all multitasking :D haha

Hopefully I can PULL THROUGH these few days before the camp. Most likely looks like I might have to work during sunday as per usual again to catch up... haiz.........

Regards,

Clement

F1 Practice...

Epic fail today. Realised in the morning that the tickets that ming yang bought for me were today... I had no idea until I was in my dad's car on the way to work and when he finally called me after I tried contacting him since 2 days ago as he was in Japan which he didn't tell me when he was arriving home.

Either way left the office at 5pm just in time to catch the 6pm race. Shots same as last time all covered by the irrirating grill and our photos all have those nice lines in them. Sadly Daven couldn't borrow his office zoom lens for me the last minute so I had to use my normal mid range lens... Ming Yang was using his 70-200 telephoto. (telephoto means "can zoom far" in simple terms)

After the mid of the first practice I gave up trying to take photos already as I knew it was all in vain. Ming Yang still tried pretty hard though. I just sat back and enjoyed watching them zoom by.

After that Graeme's dad was nice and treat us all dinner at sushi tei. Honestly I wouldn't have ever eaten there if he didn't invite me to. My first time at sushi tei, was totally lost at what to order or what to eat.......

Oh well anyway end of the year my parents already booked travel agent to Japan already... Hmm the irony going to the place where so many "jap wannabe's" which I dislike would love to go....

I mean whats with the sudden hype about Japan???! I would rather travel korea a second time than go Japan anyday.

Stay Well,

Clement

Hmm should I start writing my will soon?

Great I just did a taboo today, I brought the entire machine technical drawings in my thumbdrive so that I can work at home or when im free on the go. My dad warned me that im not supposed to bring such doucuments out of the office as with these plans some1 else can build our product....

Fuck why must I always screw up like some idiot, im damn tired of this already why does it keep happening... and on top of that I work so slow on the project that if im not his son Id most probably be fired a long time ago.....

This is why I said I hated to work for my dad even if the pay is good..... its somewhat very self demoralizing.......

After visiting grandma at the hospital it made me feel even worse, looking at all the old people I wonder how im gonna suffer a slow painfull death and watch myself get disabled.

And for some reason now funeral songs seems very appealing to me..... hmmmmm....

And ming yang that prick bought F1 tickets for me but never say which day he bought! Great! no sms nor contact AT ALL after I smsed him for 2 days.... Lets just pray it isn't tomorrow....

Attached a new song to the blog... go have a listen, its very nice... reminds me of when I was young.......

Stay well,

Clement

New Job!

Yea my dad somewhat managed to force me to go to work for him.... Although the pay is good, I don't like the feeling of it. I wouldn't mind working for him for free anyway, alot less stress.... Soon im gonna be making parts manual for his machine products.

So far nothing much has happened, other than the fact that I totally abandoned one group of msn people and for a good reason so as to reduce my stress level. I don't think I can live very peacefully when there are children planning to but slurpees in ur back.

Lots of camps coming up but im afraid I don't think I can join them all. 1) I have another camp that clash 2) I gotta work the only 1 im looking forward to is the mentor training camp as im their photographer :D

Distances are growing between me and many communities. Maybe Im so tired of pleasing everyone I want to take a break. Unappreciated, Misunderstood, Abused, Hated are a few words I can come up with that every1 else could be thinking about me now. I know there are certain people out there are just waiting or plotting my downfall or cursing me behind my back but thats okay, you can't expect everyone in the world to like you, some will some don't.

Been feeling very lonely lately, can't think about any1 to tell anyway. Maybe its hard to find people whom are just like me... for example I hate following stupid things that other people do and sorry to say I really hate certain trends which I think don't make sense, first of all "japanese wannabes", second of all "people pulling out their laptop batteries", third of all "people getting SLR cause they think it looks cool"

And got told by everyone

1) I complain too much
2) I don't do things other people want me to
3) Stop buying things

At this rate I doubt I would find any1 to employ me in future, neither can I run my own business. The best thing I can think about for myself is sleeping on the street and trying to find money. Hmmmm... oh well...

Someone send me to heaven fast cause I don't belong here.

Stay Well,
Clement